Good Morning!
I just want to start out this morning’s blog by wishing my friend Jennifer an safe surgery this morning. She is undergoing Gastric Bypass Surgery….for any of you with an experience related to that, you know that isn’t and easy decision, and for her most especially. We are all cheering her on! Hope you feel better soon Jen!
I haven’t heard a word since my last post concerning Rylan. DNA Authorization should have happened yesterday…but you can never depend entirely on the word of most Attorneys in Guatemala. They are known for telling you what you want to hear…and not following through. Our own agency told us that sometimes they just “throw” dates out to quiet people. I hope that wasn’t the case with us! I wil post as soon as I know more.
This morning, like every Tuesday morning, I took Cameron to preschool. He is in the pre3 class and goes from 8:30 - 11:30 each week. He could have went Thursdays too, but it is just too much for me to do in regards to running back and forth with work. Since I typically start work at 7am every day, my employer is good enought to let me come in late each Tuesday morning so I can drop him at school…..and then take a long lunch to go pick him up and bring him to daycare. It works out great and I enjoy doing it. Cameron loves school, so I have no doubt he will love his official preschool next fall. He will go 2 full days each week! Gosh, where does the time go!? He is just 2 weeks away from turning 4 and I can still remember every detail of those days leading up to his birth mom’s due date!
Today while at school there was another mom there dropping off her little girl who is in Cameron’s class (I believe she has older kids at school too). The teacher and others in the hallway were all hugging her and congratulating her as she is having another baby. All of a sudden I felt something I hadn’t in a long, long time. Jealousy. I don’t know where it came from. I resolved a long time ago to the fact that I would never get pregnant….and I became ok with that. I had to make peace with it. I am very happy with building my family through adoption. After all, if I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have Cameron….and we wouldn’t have Rylan waiting for us either! What I do miss is the part where you just decide you want to add another child to your family…..and it happens. You can have 1 child or 10 children. The ways in which you dream about how your going to tell people! I also was a little jealous of the fact that when the teacher knew we were adopting another child she didn’t seem as excited. In fact it was kind of odd….none of the parents really knew what to say. It reminded me of the scene in the move Footloose. You know the part at the very end where they end up having the dance! But the walls are lined up with all the students looking nervous, uneasy, shy, and just uncomfortable (that is until Kevin Bacon comes in too shake things up!). That is how I felt in that room about a month ago when telling the teacher who Rylan was, and why Cameron was talking about him. Just not quite the reaction I expected. Maybe none of them have experience with adoption? It was just akward I guess. Maybe when I come with Rylan in tow…it will be different? Who knows.
Have a great day everyone. I hope to post more later today or tomorrow.
Karla
