Rylan’s Journey Home

I can’t believe Rylan is 18 months old, and still not home.  Never did I dream that he wouldn’t be here with us.  I just read the blog of another adoptive mom.  Her baby waiting in Guatemala just passed away from pneumonia.  This put things into perspective for me a bit.  Although I wish Rylan were here with us, I am truly blessed to know that his foster family is taking good care of him - and so far no medical issues at all.  My prayers go out to this family who are still in shock from the loss of there little daughter.

These past 24 hrs have been a whirlwind for us!  Marco from Adoption Supervisors called me yesterday and left a message on my cell.  I got that message when I went out to my car at lunch.  After nearly rear-ending a semi and having a mild heart attack trying to make it to my mom’s with lunch for Cameron (who she was babysitting), I tried to call him back.  Well, my mom’s international calling got dropped somehow and it wouldn’t let us dial out.  I of course could not find the calling card that is always in my purse!  Without telling you every crazy detail about us losing our minds trying to figure out how to call him back asap….we did finally get through!  He told us that our file was on Senor Barrios’ desk and was the next to the looked at.  Had PGN been open all day yesterday, our file would have had an outcome by the end of the day.  But PGN closed early because of the new President taking office.  So Marco was fairly certain that today we would know the destiny of our case!  Well, I was sort of thinking that it would have been nice to know that destiny a few hours ago at the very lease!  I talked to him yesterday at noon.  It is now 33 hrs later and I’m mentally worn and feeling like I can quit stalking the phone!  Marco is known for late night email correspondence - so maybe that will happen yet?  I broke down and called earlier and was told he was working “out” of the office today.  Imagine most of his day was at PGN and with other clients.  So I guess once he knew something about us I wasn’t expecting him to RUN to the phone….

I’m checking off line for the night.  I resorted to taking a sleep aide tonight!  I don’t like doing that, but extreme circumstances call from extreme measures!  In fact I think they are kicking in…. I’ll apologize up front for any thing that doesn’t make sense!

So, we wait yet another day to hear our fate.  The fate of a small 18 month old boy who’s mommy and daddy need him more than he will ever know.  The days are getting longer and harder to fight off the void in our hearts.  Cameron talks about Rylan all the time now.  It isn’t easy to try to explain to him when he asks why his baby brother isn’t here yet.

My continue thoughts and prayers go out to each child waiting for a family….. and for that family fighting for that child.  It isn’t the easier road, but for either of my boys I would do it over and over again.